Would money disappearing actually be a solution for this world? I don't think so. Money isn't the problem, it's the intent. The energy behind money is purely transactional. I, a single black female that's addicted to retail, for one, clearly doesn't have a dread for a transaction. It's the interactional type of transactions that I abhor.
Maybe this is a trauma response that I need to work on, but I don't like asking people for help, and I don't like getting favors from people, especially if it's unsolicited. I cringe even more when the reason said behind the offer, is just to be "nice" I personally feel like "being nice" is one of the terms that have the most nontechnical connotation behind them. Being nice is exactly what it's supposed to be, which is pure. But I feel like a lot of people have this idea that being nice is a loan, something that the other person must pay back, plus interest, in their own definitions of currency. It's no longer in the state of being "just nice" because with that kind of deception, that act of kindness is just disingenuous.
Abolishing a captilistic government may take as much time as it took to build rome, which is definitely not in a day. However, I feel that we overlook how we can abolish captilism in our everyday personal details of living. It seems like purity of joy, learning, relationships, and family have mostly turned transactional.
I may appear strong, but it doesn't mean that I don't have any fears. I actually have many of them , one of them being my freedom taken away.
It took a long time for me to realize that I'm enough and deserving of unconditional love. I know how to give that kind of love, but I use to feel like I had to be an infinitude in order for people to love me back the same way. Where's the purity in that? I never want to go back to that kind of scrutiny. I know that somewhere out there, unconditional love still remains in this world, should I chase after that? No. I'm content with my solitude at the moment, but should I close myself off to this dream? Absolutely not. I acknowledge it completely, not just for myself, but for the rest of the world.
